Remember Tuna? Well, the other day, we had a nice conversation about stuff.

It was during a Jazz band thing, and he was sitting in with our band. With the way things worked out, he ended up sitting next to me.

I’m not interested in him anymore, but it was weird. I don’t know, he just makes me so nervous.

It’s probably because I had that HUGE crush on him throughout my junior year. And boy, was it bad.

I mean, if it wasn’t already clear through this blog, I was CRAZY obsessed with him.

Like, and not “Oh he’s so cute, I’m obsessed with him tee hee” like a normal girl would say. I mean literally obsessed. I stared at him in band and thought about him in all my spare time and when I listened to music. I was so lonely and desperate, he kinda became my life.

So yeah, I think it makes sense why I was so nervous.

But I’m definitely in no way interested. I do think it’d be cool if we became friends though!

But as lovers, no. I’ve already found the one for me. No use in wasting my time with guys who don’t know what they’re doing and don’t know what they want.

My boyfriend is the absolute best, and he’s my one and only. I love him so much :]

I’m preparing my love’s Christmas present already.

Oh I just know he’s gonna love it :]

I can’t wait to wrap everything up and put it in a box and send it to him :]

Last night, he told me he loved me.

I always knew it, but it felt great to finally hear it after 4 months.

And I found the courage to say I loved him too, because I had always felt it, right from the beginning.

Just when I thought he couldn’t give me any more warm, fuzzy butterflies, he did.

Sigh, I love him.

I really do.

:)

Today is my 17th birthday!

My love made me the most beautiful song.

It’s so heartfelt. It makes me cry.

He really is the one.

On days like today, I really feel like I can do this.

I can make it to next summer.

I can do it.

I haven’t been updating this blog much lately.

That’s a good thing though!

That means things are going great :)

I feel like my journey through life has a purpose now.

And that the struggle to find love is over.

Now I just need to find a way to get to it.

I think I might go see my love during Christmas Break!

I have the money!

I just need permission to go ;w;

I can’t wait til next June :)

I’ll be free to take the next plane outta here and run into the open and welcoming arms of my love!

<3

I’m in love with a man much older than me that lives 1,200 miles away.

My dad found out about him, and forbade me from talking to him.

I’ll figure out a way through this.

But for now, I think I’ll just say,

I hate being 16.