Sigh. My ex might be interested in someone new.

I was walking with some friends earlier and we passed by him and this girl he’s been talking to. Two of the people I was with commented on how they might be romantically interested in each other, or at least one of them might be.

And I got all quiet. I felt weird.

It’s not that I’m not happy with my love right now, it’s not that at all. I’m glad I found my soulmate. But it’s more, I feel like I’m being forgotten.

I’ve always wanted to be “that girl”, “the one that got away”. The one girl who left people saying, “Wow, she sure was something.”

And seeing him start dating someone new would just solidify the fact that I was never that girl to him. That it’s easy to move on from me.

Granted, our relationship wasn’t really anything, and no moves were made on either side, but I don’t know. I just don’t like to be reminded of that either.

Like, take for example the douche that I talked to all summer. I know for a fact that I fucked him up. And honestly, that makes me feel good. I shouldn’t just be forgotten like that. I’m quite the catch. I know it’s terrible to say, but I take some enjoyment from someone being torn up over me.

Sigh, I don’t know. I’ll get over this. Just for now, I think I’d just like to say that it bothers me.

But it’s really not my business now and I’ll try to grow up.

I promise.